Time control.

I so need it now-Time Control. Just wish that time would just stop right now.

My school is reopening tomorrow, I’m sitting here on the floor of my room, just cleaning my shoes when it struck me that tomorrow is gonna be the last “First Day” of a new school year! And it depresses me!

I don’t want my school life to end so soon, it will be so weird when school ends. No more getting up at 6:30, running to catch the school bus, and then missing it, coming in the rickshaw during winter and freezing to death, no more late remarks in the calendar, no more punishments from moody teachers, no more Manchurian rolls & vada pavs from the canteen, just thinking of all this stuff right now and realizing I won’t be experiencing it a year from now makes me so sad!

So now I’ve decided to have fun on each and every day of this one last year in school! Cuz nothing can be as good as one’s school-life! :)

Future.

Future.

Lately I have been thinking a lot about what I want to do in my coming future days. These days, I have been listening to my teachers talking about poverty, inequality, and other such things that are really unfortunate for the people who have to experience it.

So I have been thinking that I want to become the Editor-in-Chief of a Fashion Magazine (hopefully I will) and I want to earn a lot of money and later with the help of all that money I want to help the people who are suffering right now in India. Like I can teach the poor people who can’t go to schools to study. I can also help the people suffering from incurable diseases like Cancer by just spending time with them, which would be a difficult job, as I tend to get emotional by seeing one’s pain.

I really want to reach out to all the people who are in need and want help. I want to be capable of vanishing every single person’s pain. Living in India, I know the things that people have to go through. But there is more to it than I am aware of. There are things that I maybe still don’t know about. I wish I could help all these people and make their lives easier.

Sometimes, while coming home late at night, I see people sleeping under the bridges and feel that I wish that I could somehow make them sleep on proper beds. So, to complete this wish of mine to some extent I have decided to study really very hard, score very good marks, go to St.Xavier’s College, become someone who earns a lot and really help out the people out there who are suffering at the same moment that I am sitting in my room, on my bed, writing this for my blog on my Mac Book Pro; sometimes life can be so unfair!

Exhausted.

At the moment, I don’t feel good at all. It’s like I have this really huge burden on my shoulders and that I am being targeted from all sides. I don’t like the feeling. I am studying in the 10^th standard now. So, I will have to give a board exam, it is considered to be a very important exam in India. It will decide what type of college do I go to. Only if I score really well then I will be able to go to the college of my choice that is St.Xavier’s, which is a very well reputed college in South Mumbai.
So I am going to have to study really hard this year. And then my dad always keeps telling me that you just have to study this one year and then you can have all the fun you want to. And says that he will give me anything I want if I score really well.

And then there is my mom, who always makes me realize my weight issues and always tells me to do exercise and eat less. It’s not like I don’t care about it too, even I don’t want to be fat. And I try to improve my eating habits and stuff. I just hate it sometimes when she’s after me 24/7! 

A Day without Maria.

Maria, an exchange student from Denmark who had been living with my family for almost a year, returned to her home yesterday. I, who had been sharing my room with her, was feeling very weird. My room looked strange without all of Maria’s stuff and the mess she used to be the reason of. My room looks incomplete now.

I had become so used to seeing two Mac Book Pros on my table. Now I just see one. My bathroom is so empty now and no one’s there to act crazy 24/7 and make me laugh. No one stands in front of the mirror now admiring herself for hours or always dancing around in the room. It feels strange no to have her around.

But this feeling isn’t going to last much longer. The reason is my sister, who is in Denmark at the moment but will be coming back on the 15^th, which is in just 9 days! And I’m so happy; I’m like always counting the days and hours left for her arrival. I want to hear about all the fun she had and all the things she did in that one year. She has a done a LOT of shopping I bet, so I’m also looking forward to see all the new stuff.

Shit, I’m so damn excited! (:

Me & Maria